*I'm trying to be an apathetic person but........*

Apathetic-having or showing little or no emotion
i never really wanted to be apathetic until to day because i felt that i'm soo into my feelings. I like to express and follow my feelings and my heart too much thati end up with y own mess. I really hope that i could be apathetic but how am i suppose to???I'm a woman and a woman always have their feelings being showed and never want to let go of problems unless the "guys" will be able to show them their sincerity on apologising or solving this thingsso that we woman will feel better or relieve. But do guys ever think that way???well some guys do...for me....not at all.....I'm very fussy and definitely it's dificult to satisfy me..But well, if he even notice and observe me and know me that well after 2 years 6 months together, he doesn't even know how to do all that. I'm dissappointed that after al this time being together, he doesn't even know how to satisfy me....how sad...

Today
he definitely nail it. He let me go to school alone, have late nights and giving me stupid reasons on why he wants to be this way. Fine....nothing i could do or says now works on him. I just give up ok.....he wants this not me. Being egoistic and does't wan tto give face to his own girlfriend. Hey..i'm his girlfriend and he have to say something like do what you want,u started it because of your attitude,u think if u say all this would make me come back to you?if you are brave enough, go ahead and do it. no one can take ur attitude. u like the way it is rite now. so u can cut the crap.don make me as the thing u throw ur stupid ideas to.

I'm so sad..I've been patient for like more than 12 hours not being in good terms with him. I'm so.....so.....sad......i tried to flirt around but i just can't because my heart is still with him.....i still love him for whatever that he had done to me till i'm like this but still i love him....i really wanna be apathetic.


To be continued.....