* fuck up paham????!!! *

first things first....

the story begins...and the truth will be revealed.
once, in the past...quite a long story....the day he wanted to be off with having a girlfriend...he went out wiht friends....he said all guys out day....no girls...i have to follow what he wants....if you girls were to be in my place, u can actually hear him crying out loud just to go out with his guy friends...fine...i let him off....i have to....pasal ape????sayang????

fine...next thing i did was i went to my brother's house...crying...sobbing....it was at late night and i went to his place to like meet him....can u imagine he off his phone and went back home so damn late....he was never out with me this late...but with his friends....???who am i???

next thing i knew he said he was on the line with his dad....for no reason i don't know...i kept on calling and calling but he never want to pick up....the next thing i knew. he said he'll meet me for a while near the bustop(187, opp. 7eleven)..fine...crying and hugging him like hell ya...i missed him....the next thing i knew, he said that after watching the movies, he went to my school and sat there alone thinking about us...i was like wow.....this wasn't what i had imagine....i never realised that he was actually those down to earth kind of guy who would want to do such soul searching....

i believe him...now that i'm back with him...good terms with him, till today that i actually viewed some guy friendster and saw his pic with some girls and guess what???it's THAT GIRL!!!pompuan yang actually dapat pikat hati die.....sedih tau....think about it..i was really damn sedih and dissapointed that he lied to me and sanggup go to the extend to actually go out with HER....how could such things occur....ape salah i buat kat u sampai u sanggup buat ni kat i....i really thank him that he uploaded that pictures in friendster because if not, i will never knew the truth till today...Ingat...tuhan tu maha kuasa...asal agaknye baru hari nie die nak i npk gambar tu....dugaan utk u dan i tempuhi...u tipu i, tuhan nampak kan kebenaran nye....

u choose to lie to me...if u did telll the truth i really don mind...because it's difficult to overcome ti now!!!!asal lepas satu...satu...u made my life difficult...i have problem with you like before today...everything went haywire....and now, tambah lagi satu masalah....

yang tak tersangka ni, u actually took pictures, nect to her, smiling so widely when you know yourself on that day, i was so fucking sad!!!!imagine being in my place...i told u i dont wantu to follow me go out with my girlfriends...the next thing i know, there was actually a guy...a guy who i have fallen for???????be in my place........be in my place!!!!!!!!imagine lah how hurtful it is to in my place!!!!ikut kan otak, sekarang jugak nak putus!!!!pasal ape????


In a relationship, there should be trust....if you were to hide things from me, how am i suppose to know the truth...and now, i know the truth and so you lied.....for me, i never lied to u, i diden hide anything from you...even if a guy message me, i would inform u....if any guys were to disturb me, i inform you...even if my ex contact me, i inform you...although i don exactly tell u on the spot sometimes, at the end of the day, u know urself, i did tell u and never hide anything while u, nor u hide things from me and u still dares to lie to me.....

*some idiot you are*

Lots are happening in my life now that i've just realised how bad people treat me...firstly, about the sick leave...wateva k....ape salah aku buat sampai nak kene jadi gini????huh???
Fine....that will be revealed later......

Now, work place....an idiot he is!!!!Some stupid guy by the name of AMIRUL!!!i'm gonna like fuck him upside down in this blog!!!damn him...

This is how it goes....i was working morning shift on saturday and just this girl was told to handover with my bf, and guess wad she said???she said "tanak ah,takot ah ngan matair die".....eh???helo!!!are u in reality or some fantasy world of yours who u can do assumptions on me....listen here for good....i just know u like???one day...i don even know u....u're a new worker and i'm like in that company for like 1 year plus ok!!!eh!!!jgn mcm2....are u trying to say i'm wat???so that petty???kau kat keje, then kau expect aku nak marah kau for no reason???eh...ni keje tau bukan kat luar kau Lepak2 ngan laki2 ite....kau blh relek sua...kau blm kenal aku nak burok kan name aku kepe????kat sape tu kau ckp???manager???MY MOTHER IN LAW YOU UNDERSTAND???!!!! fuck you!!!cube ah kat tempat aku...mane kau tau aku ni matair die???kau baru kenal aku, jumpe aku harini je sak!!!abeh tau aku nie matair die, matair aku tu anak nye boss....stop it sak...and it's like contradicting....and this definitely comes from THat AMIRUL'S MOUTH....!!!

Kau eh...stop ah...kau ingat aku tak tau kepe yang kau dah bebual blkg pasal aku...heloo!!!mulut sape lagi sial???dgn smue org kau nak bodek2....pasal ape???kau ni anak orang kaya????soooo????kaya kat dunia????Miskin kat akhirat nanti....kalau kau tu baik sangat, asal kau nak bilang cite2 aku ngan matair aku kat IRA???ntah dgn sape lagi kau dah bebual blkg pasal aku...sial ah...nak bebual, bebual depan2 ah...nak cakap ape????("AKU KESIAN AH TENGoK KAU,PAT. BEBUAL NGAN POMPUAN PON TAK BOLEH")
suke hati aku ah...itu matair aku ke matair kau???kau gay???

helo....sape lagi sial tau pasal hal aku selain kau????Cik laila pon ckp mulut kau tu kalah juboh ayam!!!kau nak cite kan ape???aku dataNg skola kau buat hal ngan matair aku????jgn nak bertopeng lah....perangai macam siak....ajar matair aku ape????ajar matair aku kua ngan kau, hiraukan diri aku???ajar matair aku contact2 ngan pompuan lain???scandal2???timer2???helo...matair aku ni baik!!!kau aje yang nak burok2 kan orang2 yang baik2 jadi tak baik macam kau....pasal kau jugak ape lepak2 uat yang bukan2....ngan kau jugak ape....kau tu yang buruk nak ajar matair aku uat perkare macam sial...aku tak kasi ke kasi matair aku kawan ngan pompuan ke tak, sukehati aku..asal kau nak masok campur hal aku ngan matair aku....hello...cukop ah...aku ngan matir aku dah ok2...dah baik2....jgn nak mencerobohkan lagi aku nye relationship....kau tu tak pasal ah...dah ade matair ke takde, takde bezanye....tetap boleh nak flirt2 ngan pompuan lain...A BIG JERK...and i would say, no girl would want to have a long term relationship with you cause u aren't sincere....u tink with money you can buy love????U'll never be successful in ur love life!!!jgn ganggu hidup aku nGAN matair aku lagi!!!aku tak akan terime kau sebagai kawan aku lagi cause you put on two faced mask....and i'll never know who's the real you...cos u look fake all around...nak step baik2....pls ah...aku tak akan terime kau lagi sebagai KAWAN.....kau dah cube nak influence my bf with lots of stuff...kalau kau kawan yang baik, u wud have taught him to be nicer, to be someone who i would love more and not someone like you!!!unfaithful!!!my bf also shares the same views....so don ever disturb him too!!!!I've been with him for like 2 years plus nak masok 3 years..nak ckp kau lebih kenal die lame???sorie ckit....i noe him much longer than u do....he noes me best...not u....SOOOOOOOOOO........

YOU CAN JUST GET LOST!!!

*I'M SICK OK??*

I'm sick....it's been for a few days already...voice sux to the max...can't sing and all....i was wondering ,with whispers in my ears....m i just a total failure??or m i just not in this line???dissapointed....and sadness...who doesn't???imagine you wanting to go on striving and reaching for your goals when there's just something that stops you from going and there's nothing much you can do about it...It's really sad ah..Come on...i've been eyeing for this dream like???FOREVER??
if it's just that i don have the talent, then ok lah...maybe i REALLY a total failure????sad ah...seriously....shud i just go for something else???find a new hobby???like nothing better to do...do something that people would actually give me one more chance in reserving my dream...my ambition....my everything.....hemm...how???how to when i'm just a beginner right???i'm still new and i still need the experience...one day i'm off and i just lost the opportunity....seriously....i feel like crying...it's like i haven't got that far yet...like why now???give me a chance to reach somewhere high and then fine, i'll leave if you want me too...oh yarh..i forgot...i'm just nothing...there's nothing special about me cos i'm just a normal typical girl who goes yaya over things that they shouldn't, rite??? If u understand it then, be in my shoes....you'll totally feel sad, sad, sad, sad, sad and totally 100% sad....it's just that i'm not ready...i'm not satisfied with my strengths cos there many weaknesses that i should take note of...i really hope that there's a light at the end of the tunnel cos i really need it now cos i just have the passion for it...seriously, it's sad to see your dream being flush down the toilet bowl u see...
I really hope that what i'm facing rite now is nothing cos there's a biger opportunity awaits me.....

Ended blogging at 9:16pm, 9 may 2008

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i just wanna share this lyrics....

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