life...

Sometimes, i just felt, am i too hard on myself or him??What i'm aware of is that, life's hard on me..We are different from every aspects.A girl should always be treated right and a guy should always do the right things?am i wrong to judge him when i first met him??or was it just fate that we are together...?

Sometimes i do think about this,"is this really through love?" or is it just plain normal feelings of caring for someone? i do, i do love him. but there's just alot of things that are not clear in my eyes...The way you care for me just differs from any other guy that i knew.You never did try to think of ways that will prove to me that you really love me....look at me now???why am i feeling so misery?why am i even crying out loud here when u don even care about me??when all u think about is yourself?why ain't u stopping me when i hurt myself?is that how u prove me right when i say u don love me??how could u say i'm crazy??yes!I am crazy, crazy over u, trying to figure out how we could make our love stronger every single day...but all u do is to say i'm self-centred, crazy and don't care about u...but if i don't care about u, y do i bother to talk about us???why do i want to be with u...i admit that after 3 years plus, i loved you. my feelings for u couldn't change but, i never liked u.i know it's complicated but my feelings for u are still here in my heart, but i never liked u for who u are now...y do i see all this negative things about u when i actuali love you??

Do u know that now i'm stress and confused over everything that's happening to us?first we're happy and the next moment we're not. and i never failed to not cry everyday.

when u say u wanna break up, for once i thought it was true, but the next moment u said it was out of anger that u said it. but now, how wud i know whether u really wanna break up or not?
I don't want a break up, and i will never want it.it's hard to leave someone that you had loved so much and definitely it's not a good feeling....

I swear to God that i don't want to break up wit you. I dont want to find other man..and i don want to lose u...but, y do u have to hurt my heart?and you never fixed the broken pieces. u never did. all the shwit words that cmes from u now, i don noe whether it's true or not..

If i could have one wish, i wish i could hear what you are feeling. To hear u tell our love story, our ending.our 'happy' ending? i wis i know what you are doing right now, so that i know whether are you being loyal and honest towards me........

and ya, u said i have no life....yes, i have no life....YOU are my life...... Now that i don't know what i should do, i could just reflect....i don know whether should i tell u that i love you or just break up with u since u said, u don't want me anymore.....


now that u called,what more can i hope for....?it's not about the scars that have been there since i met u but it's about curing it....u let the scars be abandoned and u never cured it instead u let it carry more weight. u let me drowned in the water for as long as i can hold my breath. for real, one day when i'm gone, don't u regret letting me suffer my whole life with u.

when people are in low mood, do u think that straight away they can just suddenly be in good mood??i don think so. .u alredy did something good and u let it turn out bad again. i've had enuf. u think what's right for u urself coz i always did help u think what's right for u but u just don appreciate it.....