*my life*

k...me and bf been doing great lately in the month of fasting. Alhamdulillah, Allah maha kuasa, maha penyayang...Bahagia kan kite berdua walaupon there are small problems that we face, but still manageable.

Wat i'm stressing about rite now is money matters, sleeping matters(schooling matters), Lappy matters, friends' matters.

MOney --> out of cash to celebrate raya....baju raya pon takda...ask mum, "kau pergi lah mintak bapak kau"...enough! i had enough of asking from my dad. He already gave me an allowance of $100 which $50 are for my mrt consession. Hp bill being cut off ($2++)...not working anymore....and so...wat do u expect??i shall wait for that lucky day when money falls down just like rain...

Tired of school. every single day i drag my feet to school, somemore fasting month(not actuali because of tat lah)...jst uncomfortable....always been having late nights(I can't sleep, i need sleeping pills)....Wake up morning, canot wake up, late for 4 days straight...

Laptop need upgrading...can u believe my ram is only like 200++MB???unbelievable rite??wat to do??free laptop wat....well, i need upgrading asap. Being in STA, Sonic arts need alot of these sound generating softwares.lol. Nak jadi sound engineer mah...must lah sacrifice money to upgrade but, still thinking because i thought of BEGGING my mum or my dad for a new laptop...While this laptop can be a PRESENT for my sis.lol. Hopefuly, i'm able to achieve tat.

Finally, friend matter. I don't know y i got friends who doesn't even treat me like a friend, instead a stranger.(too much negative attitude is it?)...don ven reach there to having true friends. I go to school alone because some people just don like to go with me...Go back home oso alone because???no one cared rite. being in rp, was the worst scenario. I don even have one good fren who's willing to be my FRIEND!!hemm....y ehh???m i tat attitude??i'm always consent. i do msg or msn. but some people just ignore me...when i do a good deed, people just like thank u, leave n go...k, maybe i was a bit anti-social. but come on, who doesn't when u're embarrased of wat people think of u. I don even know if anyone is even reading my blog. Well, the purpose of having this blog is to expres my feelings, so, ok...i don need to have everyone in the world to be reading my blog. people might just think tat i'm crazy. kk, enuf of tat.

Wat i want to achieve is to have good friends. I don't like having friends who come n go...i need one rite now. I don mind if she's busy all nite as long as she wants me to be part of her life....(smiles) life is great, even greater if u have good friends, moreover, true friends.

To whom they think that they're friends of mine, if i did hurt ur feelings ever, i'm sorry for all the bad things i did that make you dump me out of ur life. i need a change, i need a break.(can someone pls say, "have a kit kat?")

I love you....whoever you are.......in my life........