i didn't expect my life to be this bad...

Although it has been a log time since i've blog...well, todAy is the rigt day to blog...

trust me...lie isn't as perfect or as good as i thought it would be...

I just had a fought with him...we plan to have a break up...

This was wad happen...he was feeling fuck up with his life...with his parents and stuff...i can't exactly remember but let me think....

Ohk...tis was wad hapen... i wanted to go to causeway for a while to do some window shopping..he den said that i was now to aring and so brave enough to go out without him...i was wondering, helloooO!!!! aren't i beig alone rite now, everyday goin home alone???isn't it the same as goin for a walk alone??he jus said that i wasn't understanding...well, wateva it is, i diden go causeway jus because i have to make him feel better. u noe wat's the nex thing he said??he said i'm the same as his parents!!!!i'm like,HELLO!!!don't u dare think that i'm identical to ur parents..u can just uck off my life u ass!!!i hate him.....sooo much.....whenever i say things, he always make it worst like....,, he wud say that he sense something bad goin to hapen and then he keep on saying...i told you something bad gonna hapen...he is tooo over reacting and i hate that!!!!

I really believe now that "GUYS WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND A GIRL'S FEELINGS FOR REAL.THEY WOULD ONLY KNOW HOW TO SWEET TALK U GERLS AND NEVER GIVE A DAMN ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS WHEN THEY JUST TOTALLY THINK ABOUT THEMSELVES"

I TOTALLY HATE HIM FOR THAT RITE NOW...

I'm so sick and tired of him being too over-reacting...i had enough....IZYAN had enough of her life.....

U noe wat's the best thing he said to me?? " i'll see how long you can leave without me"

I can't go on no more.....i'll blog again when i can really sit down and type...cos my tears just keep on dripping from my eyes....

so....i'm off....i'll story next time....I'll let this pic shows how down and disappointed i am rite now...

I'm lonely and sad and disappointed..so leave me all alone as u like and let me bleed in a secluded desert where no one could find me...where no one could notice me....a solitary existence...

Signing off at 10.06pm....