Heartbroken

i still can't believe that he is still bahaving this way to me....i'm starting to be suspicious of him...
You see....continuing back to yesterday's story wher i diden know what to reply to him when he msg what promise could i make for him....i still don't know and he told me that i should promise him to give him breathing space....actually he ask me about what does he mean by my breathing space...but i asked him back cos for me....i don want any breathing space. when i fall, i fall hard....
and i only want to spend time with HIM every single day and every single second but wat more can i do if he just don't want it. to him, freedom is something that he needs and for me i don't want it...Oh GOD.pls show me the right path.....he still acts angry and harsh to me till nw...and the reason is he said he still hears my voice insulting him....i really feel like giving up...he said his heart still hurts and that's y he's been acting this way.....for wat i know, i'm heartbroken too....in a mince of thinking about it aready makes me wanna cry...really....i'm really hurt but now, i realsie no one gives a damn.....u see.....i'm the type of person who doesn't have friends.....i just realise today that i got no good friends in RP..i don't know why......if only i have close friend...i would always wanna go out with them every single day and hang out with them but u see.....i got no one...i wish i could.....

Today
he's tired of me......he doesn't want to mit me....i'm so disappointed..........ape aku nak buat....ikut kan hati mmg sedang menangis di hati...since i'm in school, i can't cry....i'm so sad....i can't go on anymore.....ingat satu hari kau akan nampak ape yang kau telah lakukan pade aku......engkau akan nampak...amin.....(i prayed hard that one day, you will see the outcome of what you have done to me)

ended blogging at 3.38pm in school....