~bad days~

Life's bad....on the day that i broke up with him, i came to mit him under his blk.....i told him to come down, but he diden....suddenly, i saw his uncle,argh!!!he saw me cry...shit!!..now he's goin to tell bf's parents...thanx ah.....but then, he said, bf's not at home...i'm like shit!!!wher did he go sey????got to know he just came baq with parents from work...tau tak yang i very sad....he left me all alone sayig he does't want to mit me, saying his tired but then he was at work....y diden he wnt to mit me at work or sumthing...itupon tanak....mit up...and i was so crazy...ike hel crazy...mind went haywire and i can't think straight.beg him like hell to come baq to me...i think and i believe that he came baq to me because he don't want anything crazy to happen or because he just sympathise me....



Sape tak kesian kan pompuan giler macam aku nie???



erm......i don't think he reads my blog cos kan die selalu busy and dah takde mase for me...u noe i feel really jealous when i see guys who blogs or give love letters to their girlfren....they express their biggest eelings to the girl and let the girl feel so touch.....aku tak tau lah....aku tak tau ape lagi nak buat utk baik kan situasi nie....



if only HE is reading....



Dear hubby,



pertame sekali i ingin mintak maaf ngan u dulu. Memang i tahu yang i dah buat byk salah kat u..sakit kan hati u.....buat u rase takut...utk dgr kate i aje....buat u macam anjing kan???ye...i sedar kesilapan i tapi mesti ke u layan i, treat me like this.....u start to scold me.....make me feel so scared and hurt my feelings.....?



i know that maybe u nak balas dendam...by, kalau u nak balas dendam kat i u cakap je k....u tak payah nak treat i this way...bilang aje, "i nak u rasekan ape yang i rasekan dulu!!"

U tak perlu nak sengaje treat i this way...buat i nangis every single day....u ckp u penat nak layan i???do u noe how hurtful it is???abeh u ingat i tak penat skrg every single day nak pikir kan pasal perasaan u...u tau sampai i dah tak kenal diri i sendiri...utk u punye kesenangan, i sanggup buat tapi ape i dapat???i sanggup tapi u cume tau untuk balas dendam...sakit kan hati i....



by, i sayang sgt dgn u...i tanak putus dgn u. i nak kite hapi2 je mcm pertame kali kite jumpe....tapi u???u dah tanak i lagi...dah malas nak layan i. i noe deep inside you masih nak putus ngan i....pasal u dah malas, dah jelak, dah bosan dgn i...i just don't get u no more...u dah berubah....berubah by.....dah tak kenal...mungkin i dah tak bergune lagi dalam hidup u???


I don't mind being treated this way k...i'll just look upon the future to what i have to go through wif you....i hope wat u said about "our love won't last till eternity" is not true......


*BaBy IzZy*

ended blogging: 2.45pm- 30-1-2008